happy new year 2008

boy, am i glad to have xmas over. shopping, wrapping, visiting, hamster sitting and hamster losing, all added up to a lot of doing and not enough resting. glad to have a couple of days off to do the paperwork in my pajamas. alex is with his father at mount baker, washington state. i will pick him up at sumas on the way to visit my friend sheila snow in vernon, bc. i will ski silverstar for the first time, yippee! so new years day will be on a fresh mountain. metaphorically that will be a good start to the page of life.

during xmas, i bought a new van. from japan, right hand drive, 4 wheel drive van. sold my ford wagon in five days to a nice aussie bloke after listing it on craigslist. so i have a new vehicle to use to transport my gear. skis, bikes, kid, massage table, computers. will put a thule rack and box on it and i will be styling on the mountain and beaches of bc. my dream life. have van will travel and work. nice guys at www.japanoid.com. will do more business with them in the future. this van is not my ideal. i am looking for a toyota lite ace, mine is the bigger town ace. it is diesel so i can use bio diesel of 20%. someday as the years pass , shogo will be importing the japanese hybrids so i can drive these until then.

my biofeedback business is of course still astounding me. the information it provides is so truthful and pertinent. i rest in knowing that i am in the right path for me. my clients are slowly using the system for themselves and i am grateful that i have a service that will grow with me. i'm not getting younger but i am learning to grow gracefully.

stella and matt farina from portland are going to nicuragua for spring break. since alex will be with his father in fernie, bc for spring break, i am going to go with the farinas to an island in nicuragua for my birthday, march 15-25. what great timing. yippee. they are my bestest buddies on this planet. stella and i have done many trips together.

wish me luck.

happy new year to you and your family.

vaughn, washington

here to see my friends, stella and matt, and the sacdalan family for the american thanksgiving. five hours from vancouver bc along the i-5, near gig harbour. i am in this gigantuan house on the bay. it is for sale for 2.6 million so if you are interested, i can direct you to the owner. it is always great to see stell who is my best friend of all times. she and i met about twenty years ago working for the hair salon , suki's. i was a hair cutter and she was an receptionist. anyssa carruters, also was a receptionist at the time. i feel fortunate that such groovy girls are still my friends all this time.
this week has been great. i had a real moment, with nat gold from saltsprisng island, this week. it reminded me that i am nothing but a child some days. all that is important to me is to have time to my self to do my personal business, and i mean that. we had been doing hot yoga every morning at 6 am and the days were getting a bit cranky for me as we continued on. the mind was irritable and suddenly, i was reactive to the external world. crying was close to the surface but anger showed its head instead. luckily, i have a good friend in nat and though it was disruptive for both of us, we manged to rectify with sleep and understanding.
i am realizing that with age, i have mellowed. i am more concerned with the quality of my life. i work hard to love it.

nat called from the vancouver school of bodywork and massage and told me about a email announcing the spice girl tour needing therapist. she suggested i send in a resume. so i put one in and got an interview but no response on the job.

a few weeks later, i was griping about how boring my life was. routine was dull and my mind was frustrated with the lack of excitement. it was a snowy day, december 5th. so alex and i went out to enjoy the heavy snow. we shovelled the walk. we pulled the toboggan to the school hill and rode on the fresh stuff. got home and alex went over to his friends to play. i retrieved my voice messages. heidi from new york left me a message asking me to work the spice girl show at gm place. bobi, who is the usual therapist could not make it through the heavy snow. would i work it? of course, i am a ski bum and can drive through anything to get to the hills. so downtown vancouver would be a breeze. i rushed down. worked on five of the ten dancers for the tour. an agent came into get his neck worked on. at seven, the gig was over, i was provided with dinner and got to see the show on the floor. fabulous.
this whole event showed me that life is not dull and that opportunities come out of the woodwork all the time.

OMG

i finally accomplished a session of yoga by myself. after 15 years of iyengar hatha study and 4 years under the guise of shadow yoga, i have broken that sense of unease and done a set by myself for myself. that is really the hope, i was looking for.

the massage and the biofeedback are just therapies that are topical in its nature. the real health comes from exercising your will to move yourself like the body is designed. it is composed of bone, muscle and blood. the movement of joints, synthesised with the mucles and blood make it a pump that creates the flux of live that materializes your self. until i learnt to move my body in a way that electrifies and tonifies, i was giving the responsibility to someone else.

the search for help and healing has come full circle. why did i fall off the bloody cliff in the grand canyon. one thing i remember, was that to live i had to step into the other side. i could not just stay in mainstream and hope to live well. i had to commit to the search for life.
deepak choprah is still in my mind, his voice saying " in with the light, out with the dark". i remember that was what kept me going through the pain and still i practise those words, as much as i can remember.

i have been blessed with exceptional teachers. they will come, more and more. yet until i use the information that is taught to me for myself, i will be lost.

my teacher, rahasri has gone to mexico to study with her teachers, shandar remete and emma balnaves. she will not teach us until february 2008. so it is important for me to keep up since she will come back with even more information.

three of us are gearing up to study group the information so we can retain and train for her return. satuday mornings 8 am, jOdi and sapna are at my living room. glad to know that we all are committed, and they are as confused about the always changing set as i. yet again , it is the intricity of the movements that keep us excited about the shadow yoga process. really the moves are full of twist and turns, literally and metaphorically.

so today, the years of yoga have prepared me to remember and do the practise. that is a start. i have seriously never owned my practise. today i did.

somedays!

it's like the water is just pouring in from all sides. the water tank in the whistler condo has sprung a leak about an hour ago and there is only so much i can do from vancouver. emails, phone calls and googling. i remember having this event when i first move into my place in whistler and having a water tank incident. that was a while ago and it is not still fresh in my memory banks. ......... i, like you, have had a lot happen in ten years.
i talked to the burton snowboarder tennent, kara, and hopefully the floors will not be too damaged. how much can you do to plastic laminate? i will find out. soon. of course, there is the new tank and then,of course, i will have to go up this week. i had it planned for next week sat/ sun but this energetics wants me there sooner. i will send the reinforcement plumber there to assess and hopefully it will be smoothed out by saturday. and and electrician too, for something else.
which reminds me i better get the condo on my qxci and see if i can work on this dampness. couldn't hurt. cant be there asap but i can still do my best to help, myself especially.

i am glad i took this day off to do not too much. did not cook or clean. got dressed only to go and get rid of boxes of things to vv and of course puttered around the store. you should have seen alex trying to get me a orange hippo the size of his torsal. it was hummungous and it was dirty. he had it in the baby seat in the shopping cart. he even stood in the line with it. he almost was in tears. it was hilarious. pizza and takeout chinese stopped the commotion.
there's more to tell but it just was a slow day and i enjoyed all the nuances of it.

now that i know that there is a war and i have to be the best i can be in the battle for time and sanity this week coming. it is a bloody mercury retrograde for me. not too much but still it is a constant drive to stay prepared and ready for anything. i had not thought too much about this , hoping that it would not rear its force, pass gently. yet it has been happening and i am glad that my events are small. mercury direct is nov. 4 and it does not rectify until nov. 18th.

i can still breath and swallow and stand on my two legs.......like my teachers have taught me. i hope that i can slow down and take each move with heart.

my prayers are with me, and to all of you who read this. be aware.
namaste.

my day coming

i have booked my flight and hotel to spokane to study with dr. jeff spencer, nov. 17/18. looking forewards to it. hope my passport gets to me on time. it is due to me nov. 14 and i leave on the 16th. cutting it close, eh. trisha beauregard will be there too. whatever happens, i am glad to be on this educational search.
the rice fast went well. now a week later, i have a hive rash along my intestinal lines along the shoulders to the back of my hands. it could be the shrimp i ate last sunday or the day long time i spent at a wellness tradeshow for the qxci/epfx device for www.quantumknights.ca . the machine says it is the hair and beauty products. i am sensitive to my life and it shows rather quickly now that my gut has had the shock of monotony for ten days and me eating just back to the regular diet since then. not to say that my life is monotonous. just that the system is quick to announce issues. so the rash started on my shoulders and on the second day is on my hands. i have seen i happen to others. just damn itchy. took some apis mel, some antihistimines and salt baths.
chemically sensitive. use to remember being a child and had the same reactions. to aspirin. to crab and lobster. never this bad but still reactive.
just completed a weekend with my yoga teacher's yoga teacher, emma balnaves. it was a great time. tough and very confronting. glad to have the training but knowing that i will have to do more home stuff. just started reading the iyengar biography for the first time since i have had the book, over 15 years of carting it around and not opening it. it is a great read. hope to have it done quickly and then onto another , the copy of the light on yoga.
i have signed alex up for sunday mountain club in whistler. 15 sundays, lessons, and ski pass for $800. i have bought ten days. i figure i can work a few of those days.
mexico will have to wait till next year to be inputed. i have to make some income to cover myself while i train on the device.

brown rice fast

as many of my friends and clients know, every fall signals a brown rice fast (brf) of ten days. i start thinking of the rice for a few days and bang, the ten days start. funny how at the end of it i don't wish to see another bowl of short grain organic rice but as summer ends my body is yearning to begin the ritual of cleaning for the winter. i love the summer eating, fresh food from the farmer's market and the garden in the back yard. lovely tomatoes and green veggies.

winter is indicative of foods of convenience. dead meat, packaged, fruits and veggies from far away. it is the time when food used to be scarce but now with transportation so easily we get what we wish. yet the body is a primordial system that has seasons of ebb and flow. there was a time when the gut only had grains in the fall then only meat in the darkest winter, then spring arrives and green shoots are the only live food around. this is a northern pattern.

the body is like a worm or sometimes i say, oyster. we eat and it snakes down a long intestinal line like a worm and comes out the other end. like oysters, it is easy to consume the seafood after we clean the sand and grit from its gut with a bucket oatmeal water.

i think of the brf as a cleanser of the intestine. as we chew and because it is so boring, slowly, we manage to integrate the sensations of eating. it activates the enzymes in the mouth saliva to chew. to eat one type of food without oils or seasoning takes a great focus.
it takes an alkaline solution to break down the carbohydrates of the rice. acid solutions allow proteins to be assimulated. to understand giving the body a chance to digest a single chemical reaction. simple yet confusing to the modern man due to the today's addictions to the businesses of food production. we have been trained to eat way more than we need and that has produce a nation that is obsessed with overeating and sensationalism. i bet that in the old country for many of us that was not a problem. it was just stress to find food to eat.

i must say that i was raised in Canada to a farm girl from China so i have some experience of eating a boring diet in my youth but as soon as i got a job and indoctrinated into the world of big macs, i never looked back. pile it on, sugar, fat, protein. it was not till i became a health nut in my late twenties did i have to learn to correct that habit.

now in my forties, i am more to eat in moderation and on the healthier side but one cannot account for the enviromental polutants we don't know about in our air, water and foods. i am glad that every fall i have the habit to do the brf for my intestines, and in the spring i do a liver cleanse.

how to do it? i start by soaking my organic short grain brown rice a couple of days before i cook it. i wash it, put in twice as much water to rice and then i put it on my rice cooker. i usually soak a lot of rice and cook about 2-4 cups of rice. each day the rice soaks changes the texture of the rice as well, the amount of water used to cook the rice also affects the consistency. when you eat only rice, it is smart to change it a little just to make it more exciting.

some days i will cheat by putting in some grains of seasalt into the rice to cook, some days i eat some seaweed with it. some days i will eat some rice cakes to break the monotony of the rice. i also have to make, chewing the last few grains of rice, a game so that i educate my jaw to chew.

the first few days are good because of the novelty. day 3-7 are a grind. day 7-10 are a slog but that is when the best results happen. this is when a lot of water is released from the tissue and the skin begins to glow.
i drink roibois tea and lots of water. keeping the simplicity of not putting to much into the equation.

i have always been delighted by the process. it is a meditation.

excellence

life is ebbs and flows and this week has me using many modalities to keep myself afloat.

shadow yoga has started and my feet are so much stronger than ever and i am proud.

there has been a lightness of being that give me the willies and i worry. that is not a good habit. i am gratefull to know that that is an old style and i am practising to be.........a new style.

i just met a raw food teacher and chef from costa rica on internet dating and i find that very serindipitous. my friend sarinda is a rad practising raw foodist and i have been influenced by her life. hopefully on oct 20/21, i can network the past and the future and make wonderful connection at eric rivkin's cooking class in vancouver. look him up, it looks like a good read. funny where i get my inputs. i am gratefull that i have the nack.

i am planning to study with jeff spencer, m.a., d.c., in spokane on nov 17/18. his web site is amazing. the western conference for quantum will be nov 1-4. it is a fall full of education and i am so happy to have things to study. it is constant and fullfilling.

alex has just started at a new school a few blocks from our house. it is one of two montesori public schools and it has a waiting list to get in. he has been on the waiting list for three years. so he chose to go. see how it is for two years and if he wants, he would head back to his charles dickens school by grade 6. the school is building a new leed environmental sound building and i think that it will have aired out by then. i am thinking that that is long range planning for a 8 year old. i think maybe we will be in whistler by then.
hopefully harreson martell will show up at my house this week and we can play. he is the big cheese in thailand at the absolute yoga studios. they have seven sites of hot yoga in thailand and he is head of instructers training and scheduling. my friend peter lount is going there to do some computer programing for the company and to find love. i know he will find it. alex's dad russ is thinking also to do his post surgury recovery learning yoga in thailand. i hope that they can all hook up there.

namaste.

refresh

it has been a summer. i see it from a point of view that is the calmest wild i have ever seen. i am just amazed that i am still on my feet yet i see that everyone else is doing the same thing, busy. the prospectives are all unique and we all have the big ball to juggle. my observations.

i am glad to have all the tools i need to get me through. i hope you have yours. what have i done lately. i took a hot yoga class. boy was it hot. i rode my bike. i got a pedicure and a rolfing session. i am at acupuncture tomorrow. receive 2 massages. cooked, did not clean that well and slept periodically. i have driven two thousand miles in 2 weeks. i have had the car fixed and fixed and finally fixed. whew.


speaking of feet i have had the gumption to buy a pair of chung shi sandals. ugly. boy is it a new sensation. my legs are getting a workout.

alex is at day camp and next week he is going to toronto. russell is taking him. he has been around a lot since he broke up with jennifer. like a hound dog. i hope he gets better soon.


pretty much want to take everyone and wire them up to the device. it is rad. i am studying with tj tomorrow and it is going to be fun to see what the device can do from another practioner.
just learnt and worked on karma and brainwave patterns......alpha, beta, theta and delta waves. brain functions. it is good stuff. adam likes to teach karma. moj likes rife therapy.

business is good. my clients have not disappeared and they really like me. that's all i can ask for. got a call from los angeles asking for my yoga style....Shadow yoga , of course and i still am at the same shala i was when he was a client. i get to just live my life and do the things i need to do.

really have a lot to do. taxes. shadow yoga prep for emma balnaves in october...look her up. i have to get the splits down so that i dont dweeb out in her workshop. study quantum feed back.

mercury goes direct, july 10, 2007

hi y'all,

boy am i tired. being a mom slash therapist slash single woman is a big job. added to that having a chemical imbalance, and deleting all the stressful mainstream boosters, is quite a shock to the producing of a successful reality. i have to face that i must clean up my act to another level and it is hard. I'm use to going full steam, fueled by caffeine. that is not a healthy choice for my individual body.

i have reserved this mercury retrograde to rest and give up. just be a conscious, aware soul who realizes to survive i must manage my energy in a new way. i have slept during the heart and small intestine time, noon to two pm. i have gone to bed earlier than i have in my life. i have realized my No's as no's and maybes, but not make them all yeses. i have, luckily, not concerned myself with my past and not encouraged myself to be in the future. to be in the now as ekhart tolle has said in his book, 'the power of now'.

the result. my clients has started prepaying me. i have a client who has phoned me from kelowna to book her sessions on july 14th and august 26, in between her vacation so that she and her husband get some massage, that is really quite amazing cause i think of them as people who can have anyone and they chose me, so i am feeling blessed.

another has called from christina lake to tell me that she is needing a massage and may fly me up to trail for a day. i don't have my passport in order so it may be a problem. it is great to think that it could happen.

it is my plan that everyone realizes that this QXCI device is pertainate to the household like a big screen tv linked directly to the owner health and all the love ones of their lives.

so the money comes. i do not have to grab for it. i hope that it will be easier for my mind and body to grasp. learning not to fret.

alex is happy. he has played with his buddies for a week this start of summer break. i have him in summer fun program where the community center takes his group to outings for two weeks. then he will have one week of free time playing in the neighbour hood.

we will go to visit sheila snow in vernon for three days and catch up with her life. http://www.sheilasnow.com/ i hope to set up the qxci for her to see.
then to see vasanti and her new boys, noah and soma. of course i will show her the machine. i hope i will get referals from her because she is a native of nelson, bc and she will get the word out. i just found out that referrals , usually get $200 if a sale goes through.

on august 6, i hope be in banff to attend a usana meeting that astrid grandi is setting up with her brother thomas grandi and his wife sara renner. he is a former world champ downhill skier and she is a current world champ cross country ski racer. they have dr. peter bennentt, he is a reknowned nd who specializes in pain therapy, as a guest speaker.

alex and i are going to have a lot of fun on this road trip. when we get home , alex will attend another week of summer fun. then he is away in toronto for two weeks , visiting his grandparents. i will home alone with my mom. yum.

well that is all for now. i am sure that it is going to get busy during this summer. so if i dont blog just give me a email and i will catch you up when you request.
ta ta!

summertime

it is finally a slowing of my life. it must be the mercury retrograde, which will end july 7th. i am not into doing anything new, just containing the stuff i have had no time to deal with in the madness of the new year. it is good time to do the paperwork and practise the yoga. radhasri( http://www.wanderingyogi.com/) is back from europe studying with shandar remete (http://www.shadowyoga.com/) and i am ready to practise. stiff and stressed from working hard , it is such a pleasure to kick myself into the yoga. my juicer is also so good for me. the qxci has deemed caffiene as a concern so yesterday and today i finally stopped the tea habit. going to roiibos.

the office is such a big hole where paper piles and collects. i am so gratefull that i have the time to organize. it will make my life much more simplier .

black tourmaline

hi guys, specially nat gold on saltspring since she is the only one that reads my blog...hi nat!
yes nat, it has been busy. i was in victoria cramming the QXCI device operations in my tiny brain and it felt like i was all squished in there at the 6th day.
alyce harms was a very intelligent instructor and she is one of the main brains of the organization. she travels the world travelling to the conferences and it is so inspirational to hear the details of her work. the black tourmaline was a good idea from her. it transmute harmful computer radiation in to positive energy. the whole class walked out and went to the rock shop and bought a rock to put on their computer. i am going to collect many...to put on my kitchen for all the electrical appliances found there and in my bedroom...oh well , everywhere.
the device was opened to me by more than double. i can orgone generate from it. i can do stem cell regeneration. i can clear your house and your pets. we had people from idaho, oregon, saskatchewan, alberta. the two gals i connected to , one was a lab tech at the triumph atomic lab at ubc and the other was an instructer at the vernon school of registered massage therapist. she was quitting and doing this. the prairie girls were, one just doing treatment on her horses and other farms. the other , just on her cattle. the two gentlemen in the course of twenty were going into the business of selling the machines.
my goal is to develop a virtual business so that i have the time to be with alex and have time to exercise and care for myself.
of course it is mercury retrograde and i am settling into making my home ready for the new business and i have just rearranged my kitchen for my new vita mixer. i have been blending all the veggies in my fridge for my cocktail of raw drink. my eyes are sparkling. the machine has asked me to stop doing things that stress me. like caffiene. i am getting quite a knowledge base while working on myself and all my clients. it is happening . i am getting smarter in my field and i am getting the education i wished for eight years ago. i had planned to be learning in a new school of therapy by the time alex was in grade one. he is in grade two and it has happend. be careful of what you wish for. it does happen.
omg. yesterday, i was at the commercial drive festival and i met an old fiance. he is from toronto and it has been fifteen years since i had seen him. the horoscope said that i would meet an old love. that was so incredible. i think , i will feng shui my house cause i want a relationship and tho, not now, i must set the pattern to catch the moment when it happens.
ta.

just keeping it real.

another day and another bowel movement. simple as that.
funny how no one speaks of life's realities. it is kept bottled up until we explode.
i attended dr. vasant lad's seminar this weekend and it was great that i kept the commitment. it was information that was simple and real. let information in and dont let it slip into boxes to be stewed over. the mind chatter is not needed. when the things we see is allow to get to the flame of the soul then we are connected to god. object, flame, god - simple . i now realise that i have to get the video that was filmed during his talk because of the truth of the diagnostic talent i witnessed. he is a very intelligent and gracious educator and i was honored with his experince.
also i was honored with the powerful crowd of friends and fellow participants of the ayervedic traditions. there was laura from my shadow yoga class, maduri from indigo yoga. colleen fraser from vida spa. yodih from my days of the versailles spa. roma, who i had met and qxci'd at the whistler wellness day the week before. lise from victoria via kauai. jaisri lambert whose energy and strength made the event happen. the indian food served for lunch was fabulous. i am a very lucky soul.
i had the chance to cancel and not attend. i had the opportunity to attend my biofeedback in victoria, earlier. but i reasoned that if such a reknown teacher was coming to vancouver from his worldly travels then i must go and see.
so i will be going to victoria june 3-9. booked the motel room and i am happy to get to increase my knowledge of using the qxci biofeedback machine.
right now the tennants in whistler have given notice so the apartment is needing me to go up to whistler every weekend until it is rented. so if you want to come and visit. or stay there without me, give me a call. i will tell you if it has been taken. the ski season is over june 3rd so i get to ski until then, too.
i am excited that i will see the police in concert, may 28th. whoopee!

eureka

focusing my life has taken a twist this week, i manage to carve out a tv room for alex and reconfigured the garage into a more manageable arrangement. spring cleaning is happening. got the furnace cleaned out after eight years and can see every dust particle in the bright sunlight that is common to this season. pollen is here also.
which brings me to metaphoric connections. my body is also one big house needing to be retooled as well as cleaned. the scio has been big in naming the feelings, the physical and the potential for this moment in time. cleaning my office, i have found a cache of education that i have collected over the years. the rebalancing, the shiatsu, the ear reflexology and the Caroline Myss work. they all serve to remind me that the years have been fruitful. they contribute to the present and makes me trust and enjoy my abilities as a energetic therapist. it stemmed from one of my first books by barbara ann brennan, Healing Hands. to me, it was far fetched back in the early nineties. now after 15 years, i live most of the concepts. instinctively, i have gravitated to this lifestyle, i definitely feel better. the scio has given me names or labels of the quagmire of the human body.
i have bought from a company called biopro, protection from the emmissions from electrical frequency. i wear a pendant that refracts the electrical pollution from the computer, the car , the phone. i have universal chips stuck onto the computer, the portable phone and the tv. i have a cell chip fro my mobile phone. i have two chip in the dashboard of my car. since i am a mobile business, i spend a lot of time in my car driving. i do not even like playing my radio in the car any more. my ears are getting sore from the stimulation. i am realizing that to keep me from stress, i must know my own energetics and guard from excessive overload from this busy word. i use to be a food health advocate, now i am an energy health advocate.

with alex, who is eight, i see that it starts very young. the energies are not our own choosing. we strive to live to but eventually, most of us fall to the wayside in frustration and breakdown. last night i had him wired on the machine and his biofeedback was topsy turvy from his issues of the day. he had woken up with his head pounding and wanted to be treated then and there. he has a habit of wanting to be perfect but cannot focus to accomplish this. so the computer suggested less talking and more doing. bang on, i say. from this way of over thinking, he worries his body into one big knot. don't we all. this can be a lesson to us all. with the machine, i was able to help him relax and treat him for his issues. he, being an incubator, is housing a variety of physical issues. he has his father's intestines and maybe our family's hypertension issues. so serotonin is is low in his system. his body needs vitamin therapy or it will not work. he is attracted to sugar and it feeds the viruses and fungus that is housed in his system. many arenas needed to be adjusted/zapped; for example, milk intolerance, infectious virus, infectious worms, fungus, hepatitis, inflamed tissue, top pathogens, food poisoning, etc. i am learning everyday more about how to use this program and it is fascinating. he was missing coQ7 and fatty acids. his vitamin intake was low. so it is good i have all these components in the fridge and as he stumbled back to bed he was able to top up, physically, the reserves. i treated him with the machine but it is important to have it in his diet too. he likes the flax oil in his food and now is learning to have the ground flax seed on his meal.
only he can make himself happy. no one else can. he cannot make anyone else happy, they have to take that responsibility for themselves. lucky him, to have the lessons now. i am grateful that i have had the experience and i can see well enough to pass it on.
i have caroline myss on cassette and will be playing over and over again, to gain the best advice, I've ever heard. if you have not heard or read her book, i suggest you do. it will make sense of the rules and roles we play in this life and living.
have a true day, my friends.

it is busy here on fleming street.

hi y'all.
my mom, po-po (grandmother) is back on the farm. that is what i call this place because it is full of sprouts and seedlings. the garden has snow pea planted that are 6 inches tall. it will be a month before they are producing but it is hopeful it will be soon. she is doing well, not as robust as she was but that is good for her to know her limits. sometimes we run ourselves at a speed that is not good for the body and she does do that. so i tell her to take it easier. she does.

she had a bleeding ulcer which caused blood to drain into her stomach and she had been bleeding into her digestive system for a week. she did not tell anyone. then she was stressed enough at my brother's house to get dizzy with heart palpations and lucky, steve's brother in law is dr. tong. he took good care of her and got her to the hospital. she was there for five days and she is now back to usual routines.

i was very grateful that she came out of the episode with more information about how she needs to take care of herself. she found out that she has a negative reaction to aspirin, tylenol and etc. she has to take her calcium and vitamin d. she has to eat good food and drink water. information, i think we all need to know. hopefully this will instruct all of us to be mindfull of our aches and pain and to take measures to self care, not self medicate unconsconiously.

as in my past postings, i have said that the machine was very good at telling me somewhat the story of my mom's health while in the hospital. looked at her data and was amazed at how similiar it was to her stay in the hospital. i treated through subspace at 30 percent. when she got home i did a 2 hour session with her at 100% treatment. i am glad i have the ability to communicate with her body. i will be glad to go to school on may 21 to get training and certified. i need to know more.

myself, i am getting to know the language of my daily life through the scio. i am learning by leaps and bounds because everyday i plug into the information of humanity via the intelligence of this device. yesterday i showed a periodontal reaction which rings true because my mouth, full of teeth is always been a concern of mine and it is good that the sensitivity of the results can pinpoint it and treat. i am also always working on the toxins of the hair career i had. the dyes and fumes were very active in polluting my tissue. the silver amalgams also contributed to this dis-ease called hypertension. they say that 80% of all high blood pressure issues is unknown but i am glad that i am getting the alternative knowing. i used to think i was weird to be always concerned about health. it has been uncomfortable in this body, I've had cavities filled since i was pre kindergarten, and when i find things that alleviated the bad feelings such as good food, exercise and water.........i am relieved.

my rolfer bradley cromwell says that i am unique and that is what i will call it now. i am an unique individual and i am happier for it.

alex has returned to tae kwan do, yesterday. it is close by, two blocks. it teaches him to respect. it allows him to bond with elder men who encourage good behavior. it teaches him to use his legs which will support his spine which in turn will carry his heart and other organs.

i was fortunate to study with jack horner (www.horneryoga.com) and he started us off by reframing how we receive information about yoga, which i believe applies to life. that information comes in and we compute it from every which way , very much like a computer. it uses a lot of energy and sometimes complicates the results. he suggested that we as a class consider receiving the lessons like a radio. letting the information in with the same effect as the radio we listen to in our daily lives. with no opinion and reframing and eventually we can understand it deeper in our lives. i think it was very powerful change of state. i like it. interesting enough the scio has shown that radio frequency has been a stressor in my life and i have since turned it off in the car. i have decided to use that sensitive part of me to receive better information than they can provide. i have been blessed and i will decide what i will listen to.
awareness, mindfulness.

a new day.

i went to see my mom today at the hospital and she was hooked up to the drip. she had lost a lot of blood today and it was being put back into her. she looked very peaceful and rosy. i am glad to have seen her and it helps my resolve to be the best at this new profession as i can be.
alex was with me . he has the cold still and had to sit in the lobby. he and i spent the day together. he did not go to school. he went with me to train with mojan, who had just returned from china and also saw adam who had return from training in china as well as Dubai, Saudi Arabia. he is a tcm who has been on the device for over four years and i will see him, tomorrow, before he trapses off to another international training in mexico. i am lucky that i have them at head office down in south burnaby. they are very generous with their advanced outlook on the treatments. to see the body as cellular to atomic is quite a gift. electrically as well.
so i sat with mojan for a couple of hours while alex read behind me. it is quite an experience to have my child see me start another profession. i am quite blessed.
we used my mom as my test, and she was still in hospital at the time, and i could see that this is such an omnipresent therapy. it is not the therapy that is the issue, it is the therapist who has to gain the experience to use the system that is the point to remember. when i see what the experienced technician is able to extract from the intelligence and utilise into the treatment, i realise the potential of the success.
later my friends and take care of yourselves. i am looking forward to wowing you terribly!

accumulations.

tonight has been a very interesting night. at nine pm my brother called to say that my mom was in the hospital. that caught me off guard and i just rolled with the ball. he said that it was a heart issue and that there was a loss of blood in the stool. so it affected her heart. that was why she was in the hospital, for observations.
i knew enough about hospitals that i could do not much by going there. alex has been sic for the last week too and today i caught him eating Hawaiian macadamia clusters for breakfast so i had a bird. you see i could have gone skiing in whistler but was home taking care of my sick flu-y kid who has been poisoning himself with sugar. and now i suspect eating leftovers with my mom. she did cook a batch of leftover congee that i did not eat but saw that alex had some.
so when i got off the phone with steve, i went on the scio and in three hours i piece together a story that included allergies to lobster, food poisoning and myocardial issues. liver was very affected and thyroid. i am glad that i have been practising day and night on the device and was able to journey with my mom , even though i am not experienced and i have my doubts about my abilities. this has inspired me to be more better.
this is a note to myself of tonight's efforts. it may be a longer time before i can journal the events of the future. i think this is the start of a very busy time.

incredible!

i am always amazed of my accidental healings. it has been just a week to remember. i have been on the scio day and night. learning more about myself and my family and friends. i use to send my clients out to doctors and nd to be tested for their malaises and now i can see the numbers from my own machine. one day i went to look for my client who lives on the west side of town, virtually. i know her main irritant is beef and on her screen, in red was a high number, anything over 100 is of a concern, hers was 172 beef. her son has a bed wetting problem at 5 and she has gone to specialists. i looked him up and his greatest stressor is an enzyme that helps convert food into usable nutrition. he was missing it, i guess and was not converting his food and liquids into usable components for his body. the specialist have not found out why he is wetting his bed. some time later, as i was looking at the affirmations of my hypertension i stumbled onto a blurp about bedwetting and it was "issue with parents, esp, father". this is all just information, but it is just darn cool. i have not told the parents and until i learn how, i will keep this information for my learning curve.
to modulate my reactivity because the stress is very palpable. i am on extreme hypertensive medication and anything i can do to get off the medications, i will. i love the work.
alex is from his dad's side in his physical make-up and his 5th highest stressor is colitis. the machine stated it in red. so i looked up his allergies and they were very long. i will have to find the game in it all. i don't want him to have his stomach aches any more than he has too. i believe that he will make the mainstream food choices in his outside life but while at home i will do my best to give him a more healing diet.
so if you are game, please give me a call and i will give you a technical reading. the first time will be free. i will be charging a $40 per hour rate. when i become certified the price will go up to $100 per hour. since i charge $120 per hour for massage, i think this is a good price.

bear with me though. this is a very long and steep learning and i am very enthusiastic about finding the career i have wished for for a long time.

good friday

i got all the pieces to my scio machine this monday and have entered the birthday and place of birth into the data to find the range of its abilities. i have found mary-jo late at night, across town and stella in portland. this is in virtual. i have found that most people need to fit in more exercise and drink more water. i have spent hours on myself yet have only realized a very small part of me.
in fact , it took me three days just to get the machine to open for me correctly and i am very good at computer. it is fascinating. i hope to one day be a national trainer of this therapy so practising is going to be my mantra for a long time.
i realise now what perverse energies are, i guess. it is all the electrical appliances we live with that emit harmful rays. i am out to buy some frequency protection to null and void this attack to the nervous system. moj was able to recalibrate my numbers but i notice that others in the stockbroking fields seem to have high numbers too.
of course i need to get to the training center and my course in june. to really get into the fancy stuff like piggybacking treatments. working on multi screens on a variety of states. skeletal, homeopathy, minerals, vitamins, emotional. more than i can presently find on the machine, cause i am just going through the training DVDs and manuals. using electrical frequencies to assess and balance the numbers provided by the scan that the machine gives.
the computer arrived and i started gathering information from my mom and kid. then i did a long treatment on me. i have been bringing with me to my clients homes and some friends have come over to be worked on. this is the base for pretraining before i go to the 6 day course in june. i tried to get in in may but they are full in that month. it works out better though.
it gives
me time to attend jack horner's yoga workshop(http://www.horneryoga.com/)
at the end of april and vasat lad's weekend at the end of may. i have studied with mr. horner for the last three times he has been in vancouver . this will be vasat lad's first time in vancouver to teach and he was the first book i read on Ayurveda medicine, twenty years ago. jaisri ambert is facilitating this event.
so have a good weekend and i will be back next week. we are going skiing for sun/mon in whistler. chocolate bunnies to you all.

a good man is hard to find.

...........and a hard man is good to find. lol.
things i learn from my galfriends, tania and fiona, when i am sitting around , drinking at the bar. my client, diana zoppa had a CD release party for the odd squad, they are a police related film office. they were the people who made that documentary of the vancouver east side, it was a pretty gritty national film board showing the effects of addiction on the neighbourhood. diana is a dynamo promoter and i was there with my friends in support.
hi steve. he wanted me to mention what a great guy he was, and so the above statement is really for him. he is teaching me to live in the moment, even though there is a part of me that doesnt want to start something with a man who will be leaving the province at the end of april. he is a wonderful dancer and you , who are my friends, know how much i love to dance. so lets dance.
well i got the computer and i got it out of the box. i am also running the teaching videos so that i can get the opening protocol. it is one thing to watch someone do it but it will be a lot of practice to get as good as tricia and mojan. i am humbled.
even with just the computer, i can feel the machine work. it is like the sci-fi shows when the transporter reads you and you wait to be transported onto the alien planet. i know that it is far fetched. you will have to experience the sensations to feel its work.
today, i am going to take alex to mandarin and work in the car on from the teaching videos. he is doing so well at mandarin, his teacher and his tutor love working with him. his characters are so beautiful.
tonight i will go to mary-jo's for a pot-luck. she has her crew from nelson, visiting and i hope we can all figure out how to learn together. these people are very much a part of m-j www.trinityyoga.net training school so there is much creativity in the mind/body field.
tonight , fiona wants me to go to an african dance at the anza hall. i hope that i will be ready for the late night. wish me luck. i think i may just pass as an option.
my yoga teacher, radhasri's last words today was to be mindful that this weekend is a full moon. to be careful , especially with the head. full moons are part of the lunar plane and that is why there is much craziness during this time of the month. this morning, she answered a question of pain. her answer was that pain is a sign that we are feeling. when we focus on it, it is apparent. when we fix on something else, the pain disappears. so it is the fickle mind that we have to discover.
i am discovering

the scio program has arrived.

the computer and the software system has arrived via fedex. i am so nervous that i wont open the box. it can wait till tomorrow when i take it to the center to be assembled. the scio is still enroute from europe.

days will blur.

i think i will get this down before it gets too busy to write. i can see that happening with work, alex and this new machine to learn.

today i went to complete my treatment. i sat in a chair and i did not try to learn anything. it was for me. improvement all around but still too acidic, will have to work on that. my resistance levels had doubled, improved since my first reading at the beginning of march. resistance is blockage that can impede circulation. it is probably related to my high blood pressure and my mercury toxicity. i have been having dmps shots to help remove the stored mercury. every two weeks for the last three months. i also take waiora's natural cellelar defence which also helps detoxifies heavy metals. i am hoping all that i am doing will one day allow my body to be well enough to be off hbp medication. the medication is very strong and in time will do liver and kidney damage.

one minute i was awake and after some panels and calibrations, i was very tired. every time he adjusted the computer, i would feel patterns of movement within my body. it was relaxing. i tried to daydream but i quickly lost even the act of trying. two hours later, i was finished and it took all i had to get home.
mojan mentioned at the end the kidneys were problematic. he worked mainly on the endocrine system. my hypothalamus which was an influence to my thyroid activity. i am at the age where all this does happen. many of my massage clients and girlfriends are all going through this chemical spiral of middle age.
the office has informed me that the computer is coming from Calgary. today i was informed that the scio has just left Hungary.
i am excited.
good night. sleep well.

a sunny day in Vancouver

that is big news. it has been extremely damp and i have been cranky.
i am in my liver (anger). watching it as it travels into spring. the outbursts. the needs. the outlashes. two weeks of galbladder flushes and now cousin liver is getting a kick start of expression.
i am very glad that the scio is coming. the email said that the computer is coming from Calgary by fed-ex and i am scared. it brings with it healing for me. it brings knowledge. it brings so much. i hope i am capable of reaching the levels of commitment it will take to get through this. i am very glad of my life. it is so interesting.
knowing to rest before a big event is a blessing. i have taught myself well.
i am so weird. i mixed myself a drink. tequila, lime, ice, green tea with stevia, mixed with cherry concentrate and water. it is passable and healthy. not many time i am driven to drink but the excitement and the dread is palpable.
today , joni 's stepmum, vanessa called. i was deeply honored. you see, joni needs your prayers. she held her arm up to protect herself from a car crash and she had the arm cut through, held on by the skin. the doctors have reconnected the arm and we all need to concentrate on it healing so that this lovely young girl has a chance to use it again. this happened in february, and funny thing was that i met her on new year's eve 2006. it is such a deep feeling, to hope to help. tricia is trying to help but she has her life in whistler and her people to see. so getting down here is going to be a juggle. now it will up to the gods to see if we can get this machine to her as soon as possible. like i said my computer and program is coming from calgary this week. the scio hookup is coming from hungary, it is the amplifyer, it doubles the capacity of the unit. joni has has a two month window so the sooner we can show her the system the faster she will see herself and learn more from all of this.
my friend www.mary-jo.com is another friend i wish this would get here yesterday for. she broke her neck about three years ago and has been feeling the pain of sitting long in her wheelchair. i think both of us, mary-jo and me, are going to be geniuses once we start learning. really this is the encyclopedia of the human condition and i am so happy and honored to be one of the recipients of its grand intentions and intelligence.
everything in my life has prepared me for this.
born into the family i was born into, living my life of sadness, illusions,learning all that i did from john martin. the teachers of whistler, the skiing, taking time out of the rat race so that i can skip through the rest. falling off a cliff in the grand canyon and living. the yoga teachers. the massage teachers. eating right. trying it all. the love of alex and the love of all of my friends.
i am honored.
this is the start of another............extreme adventure!

make friends with your pain.

it was in yoga class, last saturday, the final words from my yoga teacher to a student before i breezed out into the street. it felt good to be out, on my own.
it was home then out to do one client along the way before i drive up to whistler. gear everywhere. massage table, oil bag, skis, clothes. packed. it is getting to be a routine but there is always something that i forget.
alex is at his dads for the weekend.
i go ski. fortunately, i even get to work up there for 3 hours. invited to stay over. my room that i crashed in was bigger than my half my apartment. it was so nice.

seven in the morning. tricia has warned me that it would be busy cause of the downhill so i went solo to Blackcomb. i had a egg buritto and coffee. gotta live. by 8 am the sock store was open, forgot mine.

skiing has many bells and whistles. it reminds you of prior times but it keeps you in the moment. it has been about 5 years since i remember being on this hill. i use to live at the base of blackcomb, in the nineties. now ten years later, in spirit, i have the same wants and needs but will i in ten more, will i?
that first lift is always beginning, a recap of the past rides but the start of another day of fun.
then it was a blur, seventh heaven twice and then not liking the set snow. questing for the softer, more inviting snow. aha, spanky's ladder. boot kick 30 steps up a hill with your ski's balanced on your shoulder. okay , is is nothing for some but for me this is not the garden path. is my taste and practise for something gritty, more than green runs and lunch.
speaking about lunch. after a few runs down ruby bowl, i get to the bottom, into the town and go to the tratitoria, where my buddy jamie is the star lunch chef. he used to be my room mate ten years ago. he recaps his life and we laugh. he cooks me up a huge seabass and puts a lobster tail on it. pesto risotto, yum. he is an artist. Pisces ox. quite a catch , girls. it was awesome, thanks , jamie.

skied from 8.30am to 4pm with lunch stop and equipment failure repair. spanky's all day. around and around.
then i proceeded to meet my milestone.
get home and pick up alex at his dads. lets say that it did not end very well and all those pent up feelings of anger, paranoia and frustrations came to a head and i expressed myself for the first time since alex was born, that was 8 years ago. i am finally saying that all is not right in my world. i will live and say what i need to say. that is all i can say on this post. between you and me, i feel a lot better. thank god.
told alex that his dad may not call again. i hope alex will fine with that.
god help anyone who tries to date me. really, i will just say sorry now. lol.
today is another day, another day to deal with pain.
it is a beautiful day. enjoy your life. be real.

crying

it is amazing how strong i am. breaking my back, having a kid by myself. those two events have shaped me a lot. emotionally, physically and spiritually. to keep a smiley face and a positive outlook, i just jammed a lot of stuff into the dark. i think it is lucky that i found the scio but now i know that it is another part of me becoming clear about what i am and the real strength it will take to continue.
like i said yesterday, moe took the training session from one where he was to show me the machine to where he was flying through the treatment screens to rectify( to bring to balance) the numbers that showed high stress. it was very fascinating. nothing i have not seen in all the years of therapy, school and life experiences. he spotted that i have a perverse entity that was in the body. he found feelings that were associated to my pregnancy. anger, frustration ,repression. this is only the tip of the ice berg.
after two hours of treatment , he had to finalize the session. i would have to come back for the structural, the chachra and the nutrition screens. and that is not even the toxicology bio feed.
it is good to know. i like working on this level. i always have felt that there was a lid on me and i was constantly being smothered by all this pressure. . last night i had a long crying session. that was the indicator that this is the real stuff. you see, i don't cry. it is so suppressed that i never let it go. that is why i ski, and vacation. otherwise it would stay bottled up even deeper.
it is good to cry. the lucky people who can.
have a good day. in the Vancouver rain. cry.

scio training.

well last week, i was gung ho and made an appointment to get some more information about the scio. roger recommended i see moe. so today, i met moe and he was very informative.
training means that he is to show me the format of the machine but being an experienced biofeedback technician of one and a half years, he sees that i have some treatments that needed to be done. even now as i type i can see how effective it was to have the work done. my fingers are so much more easily to control and direct. there was so much information that i can barely remember it all. it was all pertinent. deep and effective for me. to state what i saw would do a disservice to the actualness of the system. just say this, it was brilliant and i am now breathing so much better with all the glitches being worked on so intensely and precisely. you will have to call me to find out what i can remember.
he set me up with the wires that makes the readings more effective but we don't need to do that to get a reading. then i sat back and let the machine take the biofeedback loop. once compiled, i knew my amperage, my voltage, my resistance, my hydration and my oxidation. then flying like the speed of a bullet, moe went from one screen to another. much faster than tricia, who has been on the machine only since january. i am looking forward to practicing this for the next five to ten years. can you imagine. i will had three years practice by the time the olympics arrive in 2010.
tomorrow, i will go and learn how to work a trade show for a few hours. it is that exciting. they need people to handle the volume of business this machine will generate in only the next few months in dubai and china.
so getting back to the training, and now treatment that moe is performing. i am so excited about getting my machine. when it is not your device the information cannot be studied at leisure and then cross index. i am so looking forward to doing my study, assessing and treatment at my own speed.
i strongly recommend you go and use the training center at byrne and s.w.marine drive in vancouver, near burnaby. the technicians are so much better to show you the bigger picture. i cannot wait for you to get from me. i want everyone to do it now and see the potential. there is even a new upgrade recently that is based on stem cells. www.quantumknights.ca
talk to selma to book you an appointment with moe. 604-434-4626
i'll get back to me now.

the whirlwind

good morning ,
it has been a great week.
yes, i did wake up last sunday and had to throwup some olive oil into the sink. i think i was too warm with the heater on and alex sleeping with me in the bed. even so, i was much more relaxed and calmer from the application of the oils on my nervous system. it was a good way to start my new year.
sunday, alex was at a birthday party for his little friend, nico. i stayed home to pack and get ready for a two day ski trip to whistler. we drove up after the party ended at 4 pm. i stayed with my friend tricia beauregard, who i have known for over ten years and she is the person who introduce me to this scio machine. i also lined up a three hour massage gig while up there for the next day after skiing.
the best thing about whistler is the ski school. alex is put into a class and then i have 6 hours to free ski. he loves the instruction and i love the ability to ski what i want at the speed i like. he is at a level 4, which is pretty darn good...i got to freeski with him the next day for a couple of hours and saw what he has accomplished this year.
since i was sick the last week and did my purge on saturday, i took my time and really had a day off on the hill. no rush. the upper mountain was shut down due to inclement weather. the base was raining hard. so the masses were stuck in the middle , grouped into the poplar lifts. since i am a lover of harsh conditions it was my kind of day. the snow was perfectly fine. in that it was not chunky. it was heavy fluff. i ranged out of the tourist lines into sections of the hill that was untouched due to the lack of viability, like i said, my favorite. it keeps me from seeing so i rely on my feet to know where i am. i had so many good runs that i really had to request myself take a lunch break.
that in itself was another story. let me tell you about it.
the lunchroom was crowded and there was one empty seat. so i asked the girls if it was taken and they gave me the chance to set my gear down. i went to get my noodle soup bowl and spotted a very striking blonde man,very gq. tight north face gear. i returned to my table and the aussie girls were chatting up with the striking young man across from my seat. whew. so i sat and ate and listened. the girls left to go to work and i was left alone with this londoner from south africa. it was nice to talk to some one who was male. i don't usually have opportunity to do so, cause i think i am shy at heart or i have a force field around me that does not allow them in. so i invited andrew to ski with me. he had said that he had only four times on the snowboard and i wondered if he was going to make it through the terrain i was to take him on. he was fine. we had three very good runs on the hill and i made a new Friend. i hope he had a good vacation this week. as i speak, the rain is thundering down, outside my window in vancouver so i know it is percipitating there too. hope it is good snow for whistler's sake.
i had to leave to pick up alex and we rushed to boston pizza to nosh. he was so pooped that he could only eat one slice of his pizza.
i am grateful that my business allows me to work in various locales. a big whistler home is a beauty to behold and my clients there have five kids so alex is well taken care of, he plays for three hours while i work on the parents. it is a good arrangement.
we went back to tricia's to have dinner. i think it is my lucky day because i get to watch 'dance with the stars'. it is so much fun to see people dance. makes me realize that with practice, i too could be that accomplished in ballroom.
tricia is out and when she returns, we talk about the next day. i have arranged for her to see my clients at one. so we can ski in the morning and then i can catch some of the scio's assessments of the mrs. she needs to know. a corporate wife with five children, who is searching for more energy.
we get up slowly. tricia is up at 7 am to get to fresh, untracked powder. i have a date with my son to ski with him. he is a great person and his skiing is o improved. we ski fast and he is doing quite well. we have set up the scio with the family. i mention them because it gives me hope that if i passes muster with mrs a, my future career in biofeedback will be smooth and very profitable.
i get back on the highway to vancouver at 2.15 pm and it takes us about 3 hours to get back to vancouver, with a stop at tim hortons and the weekly road closures of the sea to sky road improvements. really they are moving mountains for this new highway.
i drop alex off at home and drive to ubc to work on a couple of clients. it was a great day, long and full of enterprise.
the next day is alex's eighth birthday and i have the care of four boys. we were at the climbing gym. luckily one of the invited boys did not show ,so i was able to take his place and climb. i loved it. alex was tentative but by the end of two hours he was a spider. with ice cream and pizza in their bellies, i drop each off at their homes and i put alex back at the house and went off to work on another two clients.
it will be interesting when i get this scio business working. i think it will be very complimentary to what i am doing now. i am looking foreward to learning more. i talked to tina about not accepting any more manual clients in the future and developing the biofeedback. she was not very happy to think that i would not do massage but i assured her that she was grandfathered into the massage and that would continue. she was sweet.
that was that. now onto another day.

purpose:to be in this body.

i started my birthday in my usual fashion.
going to yoga at eight am. i study with radhasri at www.wanderingyogi.com.
she is very educated in yoga and gets very fustrated with long time students like me. i have not learnt well. i am one of those people who go diligently but do not develop a home study in the science of yoga. it keeps me healthy and fit like the gym but i never sink into the philosophy or really take responsibility for how i do yoga. it is fustrating to her and it is fustrating to me. so yesterday i asked myself to devote a deeper layer of me to my chosen study.

bear with me if i sound a bit like a student practiseing piano. small prana is upward motion of the vayus and it starts from the bottom of the ribs and channels the energies upward and apana is downward movement of the vayus from the bell to the legs/feet. it allows the breath to be pulled into the lungs. big prana is the energy that animates the body. without big prana, there would be no moving bodies.
well thats more than i usually remember. by the end of the class, some times i cannot even say i have a thought in my head, there is so much to know.
must be the a.d.d. that the scio machine (www.thequantumalliance.com)
said i had. which may explain a lot of things. i am determined to slow down and work my life. i am the ox, not the humming bird.

today is also close to the beginning of spring so i am doing my gallbladder (gb) cleanse. it is different from the liver (lv) cleanses that most people can do. i just dont have the time or the rest time to drink the lemon, cayenne, maple syrup mix. i wig out on the lack of food.
so about ten years ago a doctor of chinese medicine suggested this routine.
one day a week, for four weeks, i eat green apples all day long and just before bed i drink 2/3rd cup olive oil and 1/3 cup lemon juice. all organic, of course. the apples being green are calming to the liver/ gall bladder and is an astringent. the chemical reaction is to pull the toxins from the tissue to be flushed out. the olive oil makes the gb produce fresh bile which in turn flushes the old stock out. the oil actually calms my nerves and leaves my skin feeling moist. the best antedote for the winter blahs. the lemon juice being an alkaline producing and sour, makes the every piece of me pucker, which is a contraction that wrings more stuff out.
it is a bit of a chore getting the stuff down. i guess if i had an olive grove it would be a piece of cake but the yearly practise makes it freshly disgusting. i keep the room i am sleeping in, cool so that i don't overheat during the night. it takes me about an hour to get it all down. i sit upright for this so that it does not roll back up. i take a slug of olive oil and chase it with a swig of cold lemon juice. did i say, vile. this goes on in twenty minute durations between one drawl to another. by the end of an hour i have it all down and i go to bed. in the past i have woken up okay, refreshed and oiled from within. my skin looks so great after this treatment. there were times when i woke up wrenching the olive oil into the sink. it was not pretty. i guess in those years, i only managed to do three days. last year i did all four days.

wish me luck. this is only day one.

this is the first day of many days.

hi everyone,
this is the start of my book in progress.
keeping tabs on another page in my life.
today, i was tired and i respected that.
a lot has happened.
today i realized that it has been since 1992 that i fell off the cliff in the grand canyan.
i was very impulsive then .
life flashed before me. i wondered for a long time why i did not die that day. why with all the set backs and success that i am still around to deal with living.
this week, actually two weeks, all that has been answered.
to see the day when i would get this new lifefield called biofeedback.
yes i did spend 23 grand on a device that explains the human potential/condition.
i've been saying for a long time that when people are born they did not come out with a manual on operations. well i found the operations manual and i hope to learn from it every day, from now on. www.thequantumalliance.com

wait till you see it in action, it will blow your mind.
i'm getting on in the years.. though i love massage, i know that it is time to move on.
the best was the unconditional love my mother gave me when she heard about this expenditure. she said, you know what you are doing. i am just a old woman who who has never learnt. you are always getting the good things. go for it.
wow, she is a grand person.
she is so cool.
her garden is already producing the winter greens, we all know and love. the first sign that spring is around the corner. italian rabini. best parboiled to get the sweetness from the vegetable. i have been have bucketsfull with salad dressing or oil and garlic. vinegar is my staple now. no salt.
thats all.